blessed beyond measure, and definitely do not deserve it!
busy lately at home.
not much to say but wanted to share how Good the Lord is!!!
He answers our prayers with love and mercy. I know he can be trusted always.
will try to write more another time
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
toby's pizza squash
It's really simple and yummy.
This pic was of the smaller pieces when I made it for lunch but you sort of can get the point.
It's better to use really thin long slices, then put cheese in the middle and sauce on top.
just sautee/pan fry in butter and add some salt and italian seasoning.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
until then.
I want with all I have for everyone to know the love of our Lord..
Nothing else matters.
But the daily things in life take up much more time than the depth of my thoughts.
So lately,
I've been catering to our little family,
all in hopes we can be scooped up and taken to our heavenly home.
Maybe I'll get the pleasure of sweeping the floors there, to be a cleaning lady in God's house would be much better than being one here, because then I'd have no fear, and I would be so willing to do anything it takes just to be near him forever, away from the darkness here!
Until that day,
I'm keeping up our house here.
our home of mere dust...
at times very sweet and
also on a good day, fairly clean, lol
teaching our little ones to know him,
hoping the love I have will reach even just one soul.
and not letting my bitterness get the best of it all.
Nothing else matters.
But the daily things in life take up much more time than the depth of my thoughts.
So lately,
I've been catering to our little family,
all in hopes we can be scooped up and taken to our heavenly home.
Maybe I'll get the pleasure of sweeping the floors there, to be a cleaning lady in God's house would be much better than being one here, because then I'd have no fear, and I would be so willing to do anything it takes just to be near him forever, away from the darkness here!
Until that day,
I'm keeping up our house here.
our home of mere dust...
at times very sweet and
also on a good day, fairly clean, lol
teaching our little ones to know him,
hoping the love I have will reach even just one soul.
and not letting my bitterness get the best of it all.
Sunday, June 3, 2012
nothing but grace
I may write alot about all the struggles of this life,
I have analyzed and picked apart all the elements of being a Christ follower that I think about,
But I don't want to ever forget to tell others about Grace.
Truly, I am only anything because of my savior.
I was and still am a complete mess (but I'm trying to be like him with all I have).
I have analyzed and picked apart all the elements of being a Christ follower that I think about,
But I don't want to ever forget to tell others about Grace.
Truly, I am only anything because of my savior.
I was and still am a complete mess (but I'm trying to be like him with all I have).
1 Corinthians 13
New International Version (NIV)
13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
And the truth is that I fail in this.
No one can tell me different, because I know my own heart.
But i'm working on it. I'm working on trying to love when I just would rather not.
I sometimes wish the polishing process we go through could end, but then I look back and remember all those tough times were worth it to bring me to where I am, and that I still even need more to bring me to where I need to be.
We all need the growing up and polishing of the Lord. But are we willing to let him lead us through it?
Or do we cause our own troubles?
For me sometimes I have caused my own.
But we should not run from the things the Lord brings us to that cause us to grow...
when we run we end up falling into traps.
We think we can handle things on our own but we need him.
Hence why there are so many fillers for the space God intended on filling in our life.
We fill our time with lots of things:
you name it- food addiction, shopping, drinking, busyness in general, etc. etc.
I want to say, with grace, that none of this will fill you up.
We will always hunger for something more.
That something more space is easily filled when we get right with God.
And I don't have any easy fix for it.
I don't know how to tell someone what to do to fix their problems.
Sometimes I think I should.
But I do know, I found a best friend in Jesus and I hope everyone else can see how great a friend he is.
He needs to move in different ways for different people I think sometimes, but he's the same Jesus I love.
For me sometimes I have caused my own.
But we should not run from the things the Lord brings us to that cause us to grow...
when we run we end up falling into traps.
We think we can handle things on our own but we need him.
Hence why there are so many fillers for the space God intended on filling in our life.
We fill our time with lots of things:
you name it- food addiction, shopping, drinking, busyness in general, etc. etc.
I want to say, with grace, that none of this will fill you up.
We will always hunger for something more.
That something more space is easily filled when we get right with God.
And I don't have any easy fix for it.
I don't know how to tell someone what to do to fix their problems.
Sometimes I think I should.
But I do know, I found a best friend in Jesus and I hope everyone else can see how great a friend he is.
He needs to move in different ways for different people I think sometimes, but he's the same Jesus I love.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
less stuff part 2
Writing all this is for my own personal walk with the Lord, but I would be glad if someone else could use it to get closer to him as well...
We have fully moved over to our 'new' house, but still there is stuff left to unpack and organize.
And most of all, get rid of!
My husband and I since we've moved, have realized stuff is a burden!
It keeps you from loving people because it takes up so much time.
Cleaning it, moving it around, etc.
We just hate it, and want rid of as much as possible.
When you have kids the stuff becomes even more unmanageable.
We have family that just gives and gives stuff. At first you think, how nice, what a sweet gesture.
But there is too much.
Hence the previous post.
I have just gotten so fed up with this materialistic world we live in.
Now I do believe God gives us richly all things to enjoy.
But remember he intended us to live in a beautiful garden, enjoying the plants and animals.
Not slaving trying to make a living to buy new gadgets, clothing etc.
We're meant to be naked and not ashamed, which to me means
We were Supposed to be made FREE.
Although this is definately not the case.
We live in so many forms of bondage
stuff is just one of them.
So, I have a challenge for myself as well as anyone reading..
how much can we do without!?
Let's try it.
Give and sell anything and everything you haven't used.
We have fully moved over to our 'new' house, but still there is stuff left to unpack and organize.
And most of all, get rid of!
My husband and I since we've moved, have realized stuff is a burden!
It keeps you from loving people because it takes up so much time.
Cleaning it, moving it around, etc.
We just hate it, and want rid of as much as possible.
When you have kids the stuff becomes even more unmanageable.
We have family that just gives and gives stuff. At first you think, how nice, what a sweet gesture.
But there is too much.
Hence the previous post.
I have just gotten so fed up with this materialistic world we live in.
Now I do believe God gives us richly all things to enjoy.
But remember he intended us to live in a beautiful garden, enjoying the plants and animals.
Not slaving trying to make a living to buy new gadgets, clothing etc.
We're meant to be naked and not ashamed, which to me means
We were Supposed to be made FREE.
Although this is definately not the case.
We live in so many forms of bondage
stuff is just one of them.
So, I have a challenge for myself as well as anyone reading..
how much can we do without!?
Let's try it.
Give and sell anything and everything you haven't used.
Saturday, May 26, 2012
too much stuff!
Do I really get it? Do we as Christians get it?
Are we truly willing to lay it all down??
I don't think so.
All our stuff.
Our people.
Our ideas.
Our time.
We hold it so tightly.
Let me rephrase.
I hold it so tightly.
I am not willing (at least most of the time) to let it ALL go.
Sure, I'll let what I want to go.
I'll give what I don't want or need.
I think about the fact that there are children truly STARVING to death.
All around the world.
And children around the world are being STUFFED to death.
What i mean is, they have tons of plastic toys, tons of gadgets, tons of food CHOICES.
What they actually need is just enough, with lots of love.
What they are getting is full up of stuff. Full of videos showing them nonsense, full of too much food, full of too much in general -- activities, etc. Even going to church in itself can be too full for a child (what i mean is it can keep them too busy and unaware of realities they need to know)...
Because what the world needs is simple love.
What a child in need deserves is the simple gestures. A good warm meal for example.
Think of how there are TOY drives.
A child in need does not need toys. Nor does a child truly in need want toys. They look at the toy thinking what could i do with that? I just want to eat.
We throw what's left of our income over to "third world countries" and just expect the guilt we feel to go away, thinking we've helped someone.
And we're just trying to teach them to be like us.
To spend countless hours studying in a building, sitting at a desk learning about what people used to do, or how to be really good with numbers, so that they can tell someone else what to do and make money and sit at a desk again.
Think about it!! Our culture is so SICK. So unhealthy and FULL.
What it really means to be full is to spend so much time with our Lord and saviour that we are so filled with him that we realize what's important is not HERE.
That we need to spend our time with LESS.
Eating less.
Talking less.
Running around less.
With Less stuff.
That's why it is said Less is more.
That's what is on my mind and heart today.
Are we truly willing to lay it all down??
I don't think so.
All our stuff.
Our people.
Our ideas.
Our time.
We hold it so tightly.
Let me rephrase.
I hold it so tightly.
I am not willing (at least most of the time) to let it ALL go.
Sure, I'll let what I want to go.
I'll give what I don't want or need.
I think about the fact that there are children truly STARVING to death.
All around the world.
And children around the world are being STUFFED to death.
What i mean is, they have tons of plastic toys, tons of gadgets, tons of food CHOICES.
What they actually need is just enough, with lots of love.
What they are getting is full up of stuff. Full of videos showing them nonsense, full of too much food, full of too much in general -- activities, etc. Even going to church in itself can be too full for a child (what i mean is it can keep them too busy and unaware of realities they need to know)...
Because what the world needs is simple love.
What a child in need deserves is the simple gestures. A good warm meal for example.
Think of how there are TOY drives.
A child in need does not need toys. Nor does a child truly in need want toys. They look at the toy thinking what could i do with that? I just want to eat.
We throw what's left of our income over to "third world countries" and just expect the guilt we feel to go away, thinking we've helped someone.
And we're just trying to teach them to be like us.
To spend countless hours studying in a building, sitting at a desk learning about what people used to do, or how to be really good with numbers, so that they can tell someone else what to do and make money and sit at a desk again.
Think about it!! Our culture is so SICK. So unhealthy and FULL.
What it really means to be full is to spend so much time with our Lord and saviour that we are so filled with him that we realize what's important is not HERE.
That we need to spend our time with LESS.
Eating less.
Talking less.
Running around less.
With Less stuff.
That's why it is said Less is more.
That's what is on my mind and heart today.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
ahhh.. a moment to actually write.
Lately life has been busy with our children, fixing up the house, and just trying to survive.
Sometimes the wisdom of proverbs can really hit you where you're at.. Like how it talks about life being pretty meaningless but to enjoy the life God gave you anyway and especially while you're young before hardship and old age catch up to you.
I'm tired of living just to "survive."
I feel as though occupying my days with work, eating, sleeping, cleaning, even talking, etc. is just nothingness. You may not agree, but this is what it feels like to me in my life. I love the life God gave me, don't get me wrong.
But sometimes it just is not enough. I long for heaven. I long to be near the Lord, to see his face and be able to talk with him like I can anyone else. To sit by him. To just gaze at him and listen to what he has to tell me...
But also I know I'm not ready for that yet. two little ones to train the right way, a husband to help, others to lead to Christ. It is shameful that I have never led anyone to the Lord. My selfishness must be healed, must be GONE as much as possible so that I can do great things for him. So that I will be able to see him one day. So that I won't feel alone. Funny how that works. The more we want things for our own benefit, the more we realize we have no one who will be there for us in our journey. Because they need us to focus outward, not inwardly.
I know I need to change. I need not to worry. About anything. Goodness that is hard for me. I am full of fear. My thoughts need to be altered and yet I pray this all the time. A constant struggle. Fear of everything.
I also get tired of worrying about what food i'll eat... Like if the food is good enough. Well, if there is not much money in budget to eat certain foods, you eat what you have! I don't think Christ died for our sins so that we could eat organic (or any other type food deemed "right" in man's eyes.) food!! The bible does say...
Romans 14:17 ESV
16“Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.
Lately life has been busy with our children, fixing up the house, and just trying to survive.
Sometimes the wisdom of proverbs can really hit you where you're at.. Like how it talks about life being pretty meaningless but to enjoy the life God gave you anyway and especially while you're young before hardship and old age catch up to you.
I'm tired of living just to "survive."
I feel as though occupying my days with work, eating, sleeping, cleaning, even talking, etc. is just nothingness. You may not agree, but this is what it feels like to me in my life. I love the life God gave me, don't get me wrong.
But sometimes it just is not enough. I long for heaven. I long to be near the Lord, to see his face and be able to talk with him like I can anyone else. To sit by him. To just gaze at him and listen to what he has to tell me...
But also I know I'm not ready for that yet. two little ones to train the right way, a husband to help, others to lead to Christ. It is shameful that I have never led anyone to the Lord. My selfishness must be healed, must be GONE as much as possible so that I can do great things for him. So that I will be able to see him one day. So that I won't feel alone. Funny how that works. The more we want things for our own benefit, the more we realize we have no one who will be there for us in our journey. Because they need us to focus outward, not inwardly.
I know I need to change. I need not to worry. About anything. Goodness that is hard for me. I am full of fear. My thoughts need to be altered and yet I pray this all the time. A constant struggle. Fear of everything.
I also get tired of worrying about what food i'll eat... Like if the food is good enough. Well, if there is not much money in budget to eat certain foods, you eat what you have! I don't think Christ died for our sins so that we could eat organic (or any other type food deemed "right" in man's eyes.) food!! The bible does say...
Romans 14:17 ESV
For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking but of righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.
That gives me HOPE and Peace. To be Free in that I need not focus on what's for dinner, but instead what is inside my body that gives me life. MY SOUL. Feeding my soul with the fellowship of the Lord.
Isn't that enough? Shouldn't that satisfy me?! YES. To eat to please my flesh would be foolish.
My flesh would lead me away from him. Therefore as I see it, food could ultimately cause me to fall in a trap... Really!
I want to be his hands and feet, without being afraid or tied down to rules.
I see so much pain, anguish, lies, deceit, in this world that it makes me overwhelmed.
I cry out to him, though I know this world will soon pass away and the evil will be overcome.
I can't just shut myself away from it all and keep the light i have hidden.
That must be why it is said to let your light shine for all men.
| Matthew 5 >> New American Standard Bible |
16“Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.
17“Do not think that I came to abolish the Law or the Prophets; I did not come to abolish but to fulfill. 18“For truly I say to you, until heaven and earth pass away, not the smallest letter or stroke shall pass from the Law until all is accomplished. 19“Whoever then annuls one of the least of these commandments, and teaches othersto do the same, shall be called least in the kingdom of heaven; but whoever keeps and teaches them, he shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven.
20“For I say to you that unless your righteousness surpasses that of the scribes and Pharisees, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven.
But, OUCH. we must be keepers of the law he has for us as well! And teach others. AND let them see us!! Here I am, world.
Look to him. SEEK HIM WHILE YOU CAN. he'll teach you.
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