Wednesday, June 27, 2012

toby's pizza squash

One night he just came up with it. Steph had brought over some squash and beans from her garden the day before.
 It's really simple and yummy.
This pic was of the smaller pieces when I made it for lunch but you sort of can get the point.
It's better to use really thin long slices, then put cheese in the middle and sauce on top.
just sautee/pan fry in butter and add some salt and italian seasoning.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

until then.

I want with all I have for everyone to know the love of our Lord..
Nothing else matters.

But the daily things in life take up much more time than the depth of my thoughts.

So lately,
I've been catering to our little family,
all in hopes we can be scooped up and taken to our heavenly home.
Maybe I'll get the pleasure of sweeping the floors there, to be a cleaning lady in God's house would be much better than being one here, because then I'd have no fear, and I would be so willing to do anything it takes just to be near him forever, away from the darkness here!

Until that day,
I'm keeping up our house here.
our home of mere dust...
at times very sweet and
also on a good day, fairly clean, lol
teaching our little ones to know him,
hoping the love I have will reach even just one soul.
and not letting my bitterness get the best of it all.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

nothing but grace

I may write alot about all the struggles of this life,
I have analyzed and picked apart all the elements of being a Christ follower that I think about,
But I don't want to ever forget to tell others about Grace.

Truly, I am only anything because of my savior.
I was and still am a complete mess (but I'm trying to be like him with all I have).

1 Corinthians 13

New International Version (NIV)
13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

And the truth is that I fail in this.
No one can tell me different, because I know my own heart. 
But i'm working on it. I'm working on trying to love when I just would rather not.

I sometimes wish the polishing process we go through could end, but then I look back and remember all those tough times were worth it to bring me to where I am, and that I still even need more to bring me to where I need to be.

We all need the growing up and polishing of the Lord. But are we willing to let him lead us through it?
Or do we cause our own troubles?
For me sometimes I have caused my own.
But we should not run from the things the Lord brings us to that cause us to grow...
when we run we end up falling into traps.
We think we can handle things on our own but we need him.

Hence why there are so many fillers for the space God intended on filling in our life.
We fill our time with lots of things:
you name it- food addiction, shopping, drinking, busyness in general, etc. etc.
I want to say, with grace, that none of this will fill you up.
We will always hunger for something more.
That something more space is easily filled when we get right with God.

And I don't have any easy fix for it.
I don't know how to tell someone what to do to fix their problems.
Sometimes I think I should.
But I do know, I found a best friend in Jesus and I hope everyone else can see how great a friend he is.
He needs to move in different ways for different people I think sometimes, but he's the same Jesus I love.