The other day I made pumpkin cheesecake. I made enough batter for 4 or 5 cheesecakes... and i put it in the crusts and then i tasted it. Wasn't that great!
I wondered why. I scraped it out and added more sugar. Tasted a little better. Put it in the fridge.
A day or so later, toby says, aren't you supposed to Bake them? I thought for a minute about it... UH, Yeah. we were supposed to bake it. I laughed a lot about that! they were so good once we cooked them!
Life just seems to have those sort of moments. And the best thing to do is Laugh! I'm learning to do that more. I often get frustrated with little things and forget the big picture. But it's not about being perfect. It's about learning and growing and being happy where you are. Right at this moment.
And so lately, I've begun to enjoy little moments of life. Especially little moments with my husband. Like going together to see our baby on the ultrasound for the first time. It was incredible and unforgettable!
I remember all the little details of it. Walking into the hospital, waiting for them to call us back, and then getting to see sort of what our baby looks like. And then when she said you have a little boy! Toby was grinning ear to ear!! And he made that little noise he makes when he is happy but doesn't know what to say. Its just something I notice. We are so excited!
Toby videoed the whole thing. Even though he probably wasn't supposed to. When we walked out of there we both were so excited! We got in the car and of course i was hungry, but we called our family members one by one. We were on the phone almost all day telling everyone. I think this was one of the happiest days I've ever had!
I live for little moments like that.
Yesterday we went to toby's dads house and he built shelves for the baby. Football shelves. Course we will leave it up to the child to decide if they like football or not! But I can tell toby is happy and wants to be involved. I just love that! I can't wait to see how the baby's room will come together.
But today I heard something that really hit me hard. I always associate things with love. Objects as representing something beautiful. but its not that way! Things are only to get by. Love is with people! And so, I realize that what is important is our baby, not our baby's stuff.
Living and Learning.